Yes, it is hurt!

I don’t know why on that particular day I did not turn off my cell-phone as usual before I went to sleep. As a result, that early morning, its rings woke me up from my already lack of sleep due to working overtime.

“Hello?” (I barely opened my eyes)
You… b*&$h… stay away from my husband!!!” (a lady yelling on the other side)
“Pardon me.. haaah… whaaat?” (I jumped off from my bed and tried hard to gather my soul)
“You heard me! Stay away from husband! (she mumbling) … I will kill him, myself and my baby girl!” (she toned down her voice)

Oh my… I tell you, with that kind of morning call, I bet you agree with me that our adrenaline will rise up to the highest bar easily. That morning, for the first time ever in my life, someone called me with such bad name. That morning was the day how I found I had been cheated by a man that I thought as a very nice gentleman, of course single, who loved me. That morning, I wanted bad to scream and slap that guy very hard. I felt so foolish, so blind, so stupid. I made a big mistake in my life, what a shameful.

Fast forward after that wake-up call. On my way to office, between the crazy traffic jams, I dialled that guy’s number. I was pretty sure he was already at his office.

“Good morning, Sweet… how are….”(he sounds happy)
“Don’t sweet me! Please tell  your wife,  I got no interest at all at you. Thank you for not telling me that you’re married, that also with a baby girl! Such a big liar! How could you do this to all of us?”
(I turned off my cellphone)

For the rest of the day, I got so many unwanted calls. From him. From her. All ignored. I tried so hard to concentrate with my meetings. Yet I felt something bleeding inside of me. Then, I realized I’d better get this done once for all. I took her call. I told her, I am truly sorry that this so called love affair happened. I did not know at all that he is married and just had a baby. I ensured her that her husband is all hers. I told her, I got better things to do and she doesn’t have to waste her time on me. In a way I hope she got my message, “I’m sorry. There, you can have your husband back and stop calling me!”.

That day, I buried my all feelings for him. I felt like I got slapped and stabbed badly. Yes, it is hurt. Honestly, it hurt me so much. He succeeded making me falling in love with him. He fooled me. What a smooth operator, he was. What hurt me more was the fact when I knew I had hurt another woman. I didn’t mean it, I didn’t know his real status. We, two women, got fooled at the same time. When I finally took his call later on that day,  I asked him: “Why you didn’t tell me the truth? What’s the point you brought me to seventh heaven for later I have to experience such a call from your wife?”. Of course, I didn’t let him explain his acts. What for?

To conclude my day, I wrote on my diary:
I have fell in love with a wrong person. Oh what a joy of single life!
Quietly, I thanked him later on. Because of him, I had another bitter experience in my life that I believe will make me stronger after a while. I always thought that kind of experience would never happened to me. Now I know better: although you are already so on guard and extra careful with yourself, you are still prone to such bitterness.

Because not every one will tell you the truth from the beginning!

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